Wednesday, April 26, 2006

Exactly one week since the Surrender

Precisely 7 days ago, on 19th April 2006 (Wednesday), I surrendered my life, my all and my everything to God. I recommitted my self, my life, my being, my service, my thoughts, my actions towards the fulfilment of His Will and the extension of His Kingdom.

Surrendering means trusting and thrusting everything in and to God.

I discarded some things which would take my focus away from God - computer games. Yes. I threw every single CD or DVD which I could find in my room. As I walked towards the rubbish chute with those disks, I felt a little ashamed by what I did with the resources God blessed me with.

Stupid, demonic, fruitless games. They almost cost me my 'A' levels and my faith.

13 No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it. 1 Cor 10

But thank God, He provided a way out for me before I was totally enslaved by that RPG.

With God's help, I took a bold step of faith.

In all I do, I do it unto and for Him. In all I do, I try my utmost not to doubt or worry or fear.

I live my life and my days from then on this verse:

5 Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; 6 in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight. Prov 3

I pray everyday with faith, with confidence and with conviction. I placed the Lord before me and my ways and never looked back. And God is faithful, He did answer my prayers. Praise be to Him!

I never want to question or doubt God anymore. I don't want to be anxious or worry about anything. I want to trust in Him and Him only.


The world torments the body,
The demons torture the flesh,
But my faith shall not falter,
My spirit lives with the Lord forever.

Shadows engulf me from the outside,
Suffering strike me from the outside,
Death humiliates me from the outside,
But the Lord dwells inside me,
I shall not fear.

The devil takes away my family,
The world plunders my possessions,
The people steal all my finances,
But I have God,
So I have everything.

Your will be done.

Sunday, April 16, 2006

Daddy's home and he asks his 4 kids whatever they want.

Child A: I want a toy train set!
Child B: I would like to have the Luke Skywalker action figure.
Child C: I want to go to Disneyland, Dad.
Child D: Daddy, I want you!

What is provision compared to the provider?

I want to be like Child D. So what if I have the train set which I always dreamed of? If it's broken, it's gone. But if I have Daddy, I don't have to worry about anything at all.

I want to lean on God, and on God only.

33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Matt 6

Because once I have Him, I don't have to worry about anything else.

25 "Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear...34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. Matt 6

Because once I have Him, certain things of this world (like fame, fortune, pleasure, power, etc) would seem trivial compared to what I can get from Him.

Not my will but His be done.

Sunday, April 09, 2006

I bar RPGs in Jesus' name

In the past week, I installed an RPG (Role Playing Game) named The Elder Scrolls IV: Oblivion. I must say that I was addicted to it.

There was so much to do (in that 'world'). Train up your character, collect powerful items and artifacts, complete countless quests, slay demons and sorcerers, etc.

The list of possiblities is never-ending.

Playing this game is sinful in nature.
  1. It places you above God - that you are in control of the 'world' you are in. Do whatever you want for whatever you desire. Want something to happen? Not need to pray, just cast a spell.
  2. It takes you away from God - one more minute in the game is one less minute spent with God.
  3. It does not glorify Him - completing quests results in fame and fortune. For who? You, not God.
  4. It does not fulfil His will and expand His kingdom - when playing, I'm not worshipping God, praising His name, living a Christlike life, proclaiming the Good News, etc.
  5. It focuses on the evil one - demons, imps, dragons, orcs, trolls, elves, etc. Creatures which are not of God.
No wonder after many hours of gaming in the day, I can't sleep peacefully at night. I feel scared at times. My spirit feels disturbed. I'm not as open and receptive to His Word in church.

Truth is, IT'S SO NICE TO SIN!

19 For what I do is not the good I want to do; no, the evil I do not want to do - this I keep on doing. Romans 7

But there is hope.

13 I can do everything through him who gives me strength. Phi 4


Moments ago, I cleared my hard disks of all games and unrighteous files.

From then, I felt so liberated, so light. Such great a burden being lifted off me. Also, I have more hard disk space now - for photoshop, of course!

Praise the Lord!

Not my will, but Your's be done.


Friday, April 07, 2006

Complacency and Lowering Expectations

If you're in the Armed Forces long enough, you will realise that many survive on complacency.

Maybe it's just me and my unit, but it's sad though when you really want to give your best shot at something and then your platoon-mate goes, "No need that can already. No need so garang (enthusiastic) one..."

I admit, sometimes when I'm feeling really down and lazy, I feel how they feel. But on the other occassions, I just can't stand this kind of people who drag you down.

I can't stand people who settle for less. Those buggers just want to relax and forget it all. Pushing work around and disappearing when the going gets tough.

"Get it over and done with."

Very ambiguous.

May mean simplicity in thought - do what you need to do and get moving. There's a lot more work to be done.

May mean complacency - wholehearted effort and half-hearted effort still get the job done. Half-hearted one, lah. It's easier.

When things have to be completed by a team-effort, I feel an urge to approach these people and get it sorted out once and for all.

Then they feel offended - that you are not appreciating their efforts. They sulk and whine and demoralise everyone else. They nag and complain and undermine everyone else's efforts.

Bloody, difficult people.

It's hard to be human.

There's more. You've got to forgive them, tolerate their nonsense, bear their insults and most of all, LOVE them.

That's when you really need His help.

Sunday, April 02, 2006

Paint Splat 2

White space for everyone!